When the Court Doesn’t See You: Day 10, Truth & Exhaustion

My arm hurts from typing. The bone near my elbow is in excruciating pain.

Today, I ate leftover cereal — the only thing I could manage. No appetite. Just exhaustion. The kind that sits in your bones and whispers, “What’s the point?”


We were back in maintenance court — session number ten.

They suggested attaching the house. But now, suddenly, it can’t happen without a court order.

So after ten sessions, I’m right back where I started.


My daughter asked me how it went.

And I stood there, not knowing what to say.

Do I protect her by hiding the truth?

Or do I risk breaking her with it?


I’m afraid to lie — even with good intentions — because at some point, the truth will come up, and I don’t want to be the one who broke her trust.


Meanwhile, he lies. Under oath.

He paints me as the villain, erasing every act of love, care, and commitment I gave in building our family.

Suddenly he has “loans” that don’t appear on any bank statement. Everything about him is staged, orchestrated, twisted.


He’s messy. Filthy. Emotionally grotesque.

To look at him is to confront a version of reality that makes no sense.


We are without electricity. We needed data just to move forward.

A friend loaded 20GB for me so I could research how to file an urgent notice of motion.


Another friend called. We ended the call with a scripture:


Deuteronomy 8:18

“But remember the Lord your God, for it is He who gives you the ability to produce wealth…”


She also sent a song —

🎵 Granted by Josh Groban

Listen here.


I held onto that melody like a lifeline. Because even when courtrooms ignore you and the world spins off-center — there’s still grace.


I might be bruised. I might be exhausted.

But I’m still here.


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